sitting outside in the late afternoon sun, a bunch of us had walked down to the nearby pub for a few drinks after our last tv show taping on sunday. with me were five other crew members - all girls - as well as our male producer. post-filming debrief talk turned to casual chit-chat until my producer, seated next to me, asked out loud a question that i wasn't prepared for."so r*yan, apart from the community newspaper, don't you also write for another publication? a gay and lesbian one?"the table goes quiet and all eyes turn to me. i ...